Emotionally Spent

[kristen999]

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I'm am so drained. I had such a great time with my mom, I miss her so much. All it did was remind me that a lot of things went wrong when she was forced to move. While I had a wonderful few days I'm feeling very very down right now.


Its like this flood that I can't control knowing I won't see her again until after the holidays. I know we'll visit more now that I've moved but I'm feeling pretty wrecked.

Had the second job interview and I think I nailed it...but the DM won't let me know till Monday if I got it. Personally I think she's just waiting on my background check to come back.

I'm not going to work tomorrow, I just can't.....and depending how that call pans out....well...we'll see.

I know all this will be better in a few days...just a lot happening at once as usual and soon things will calm once again. I'll be happy when things are NOT so freaking crazy...I just want tom normalcy for a while. Its getting their, settled in to town, the city...now if this stupid job situation would calm the hell down...I'd be a happy camper.

Sigh...enough rl crap. Hope everyone is well.

Comments

[kriadydragon.livejournal.com]

I think we can all agree that the down days never last. You should spend your day of not going to work as a "me" day. Do something you like, even if it's just sitting around the house in your PJs watching movies.

Hope you get the new job. A lot of people will say a job is a job, whether you like it or not, but that's not true. It's actually more important to have a job you enjoy.

[kristen999.livejournal.com]

Thanks hon, took teh next couple of days off just to collect myself. I'm feeling much better today, I didn't sleep at all the night of my 2nd interview and went to bed right after SPN.

Either way Monday I'll know whats going on --on the job front.

thanks for your kind thoughts

[alipeeps.livejournal.com]

Hey hon... I think it's perfectly normal to feel the way you do. I've been there myself.. when I lived in Germany, away from friends and family, I had one weekend where I spent the whole weekend with a group of friends and had *such* a good time and then on Monday I was back on my own again all day (I worked as an au pair, so just me and two small children) and I felt all weepy and sad all day, for no reason. It's just kind of an emotional crash after a high point. Just think of the good times you've just enjoyed and remind yourself this is just a low mood and it will pass...

Good luck on the job front. I'd take today as a sick day if I were you and just chill out - sounds like you need it. Hope things settle down soon.

*hugs*

[kristen999.livejournal.com]

Thank you...I think you're right it is just this emotional crash after feeling so good, coupled with teh stress of waiting for word after my second interview.

Feel loads better today after some decent sleep,the crazy depression is still there but its not as heavy. Took a sick days....so I'll just rebound over the weekend....read some fic and chill in front of the TV.

Thank you!

[mellaithwen]

damn weirdo friends list and time difference grrr

but here now :)

I think I met Tom Normalcy at a birthday party once...not the most amazing of people, gotta be honest :)

hope everything's a little better now, and good luck with the job! *hugs*

[kristen999.livejournal.com]

Heh, after these past few months I'd like him stay as guest just for a little while :-P

Thanks for the hugs!